by emily:
“i don’t think that it’s the practical ones among us who move to new york. (perhaps it is just that it needs a naive trust in life, that whatever happens is meant to, or could, or does and you’ll get through it.) there is something about this place that requires a leap of faith, that asks you to hold tight and see what happens, that never actually promises that you’ll come out the other side not worse for wear. but you do, usually. i have, mostly.
…but everything comes back to new york for me. what it means to stay. (and what it would mean to go.)
…all this to say that tonight, i wish i had not looked at what we could be renting in chicago right now.”